Sports Day

15 Feb aritu hari sukan tadika Suhail...masa 4 tahun aritu, tak dapat participate sebab Suhail demam.. this year, 5 years bolela participate.  me myself paksa diri datang semata sebab anak...coz i know it will be hot n im totally weak bila kena panas nnt, later pitam..pening...tapi demi anak, tawakal jelaah :)
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Everyday kat school cikgu pesan pakai tshirt sebab nak berlatih sukan...first child, i feel excited and thinking macamanala nanti dorang ni nak sukan..yelah..kids....agak sukar nak handle..dengan mcm2 perangai...kurang sabar memang payah..salute to all the teachers!
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Bila tanya Suhail bila balik sekolah, berlatih apa kat school tadi...die just jawab Suhail xtau..hmmm malas nk layan la tuu...
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 Hari kejadian, bangun la awal..Suhail pon ceria jee...Suhail rumah biru..sebab kata kena ada kt padang by 730am..so we all gerak awal..smpai pon awal...cikgu pon ada yg xsmpai lagi..so chill jelah kt khemah tu..
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then kena get ready utk marching kt padang...at this time, Suhail start crying, katanya xmau sukan...alahaiii kenapa pulak ni...sedih sbb Ibu ada ke..yelah..lama da ibu xanta pegi skola...selalu Tok n mak lang dia je..so arini extra clingy sbb ada ibu n ayah. Hubby pujuk and teman dia kt tempat bersiap, then OK kejap.
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Setel marching, tgh nk cheer for rumah masing2...saje laaa pegi kt Suhail nak snap some pics, trus he hugged me n cry kata Suhail tak mau sukan...nervous kot sebab xpernah sukan...but then cikgu dia pujuk and he stop crying,,tp xceria...

Abes marching, die dtg kt khemah parents, crying out loud, pujuk pujuk, Hubs bawak dia pergi tempat sukan, then die nak main...maybe ada a lil bit confidence tgk kawan2.. then smpai giliran dia, main baling bola masuk dlm tong. dah la yang first skali...but he did well.. sekali baling saja and lari sekuat hati... barulah nampak dia happy, ceria, cheeering for his team mates. :)

getting ready

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ceria dapat piala :)

experience yang priceless, for us n Suhail...semoga membesar jadi anak yang soleh, pintar dan diredhai Allah ye sayang :)



....tilll next time :)

Nausea....weak at its best!

sooo...last post is about me yang dapat tau pregnant again
 Alhamdulillah rezeki :). . da ready mental, fizikal semua...sebab memang naaakkk sangat baby kan... and not all pregnancy journey to smooth sailing, happy, bahagia...and lucky for you if you not encounter any morning sickness.. congrats!
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orang kata, nak tau kita ada alahan while ke tak, ask your mom...yes, your mom yang give birth to you!..kalau your mom ada alahan, then you will too! and as for me, based on my first pregnancy, and my mom...i have alahan agak teruk...BUT this time at its worst!

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i remember, masa pregnantkan Suhail, yes i do encounter morning sickness, tak bole bau benda yang too wangi/ busuk.. lost apetite and the list go on..tapi dalam 12 weeks macam tu, its getting better. but for this pregnancy, now im already 16 weeks, still headache tak kira masa, if salah makan bila2 saja bole muntah...and frequent pitam . So, i cant go to work which require me to stand all day long..i did try, but i just can't. sebab tros pitam and weak.
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yeah..very weak this time...dengan tak berapa selera nak makan...weight losss which my weight now only 43-44 kg je. i dunno what to eat..try to eat...i can eat but then a few moments later...rs xsedap dalam perut and hasilnya...muntah semua.
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my fav food pon i rs loya..cannot makan pedas2..n buntu nak makan apa..tapi LAPAR! every night while tdo, selalu mimpi tengah makan, apa2 laaa...sebab maybe perut lapa kot. minum air kosong..awas! tros muntah semua sampai tak ada apa, tahap smpai green color yang keluar asid tu... my hubby's dedorant pon tak bole bau...pdhal i yang belikan bau tu dulu,,bila die nk sembur, i ask him sembur kt luar bilik, jauh2, kalau tak i terus muntah...now hubby pakai yang roll on je ..so for now, lambat laa habis perfume...bersambung lepas deliver laaa nampaknya.
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bau orang menumis, yang menyengat...kuali tengah tnggu minyak panas...fuhhh..siaplah trus meluru...while now i stay umah in law sbb my MIL risau if i sorang2, malu la bila dorang tgh masak i xtlg kann...i try to tahan but FAILED..lastly dorang kesian and halau i jgn masuk dapo. u see, the feeling lepas muntah tu...i xsuka sbb mmg lemah sangat lepas tu.
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nak keluar jalan jalan memang takde buat masa skrg, my mom in law adala jugak ajak keluar makan, sebab risau i bosan terperap kat rumah, but i dont mind and i feel at ease kalau kt rumah..kalau keluar rumah time panas2 tu memang mengundang pitam je nanti, better NOT! menyusahkan orang je nanti...bila dorang tanya ada teringin nak makan apa ke? i just say ntahla..xde rs apa pon..xde selera..tak terfikir nak makan...smpai to that point.
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malam-malam...another problem is...i cant sleep...i just shut my eyes but i cant sleep..smpai laaa 4am cmtu baru rs nak terlena...pastu pening sebab kena bangun subuh pastu tak bole tdo lagi...hasilnya..HEADACHE. Handphones, pon tak bole tengok lama2...pening and bila pening, muntah laaa..lagi2 kalau tengok dalam gelap..better not.
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kesimpulannya, this time pregnancy, mmg teruk...and im at my weakest point...if people said, its 2nd pregnancy, shud be easier....its a bullshit. differ people, differ pregnancy, differ pregnancy journey..
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Now at my 16th weeks, bolela jugak tapi still if baby tak suka...loya n trus muntah...haih la baby...ibu dont know what to eat lagi
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Things yang i bole consume now:

: air kosong have to be COLD, if not i will get orange juice (sikit je) campur dalam air msk, to add flavor je

: Susu kurma, soya, orange juice

: orange, apple, mango, prunes...(watermelon cant accept )

: things i cook...now suka sgt masak kurma ayam, telur masak asam

: bayam, if makan nasi pon kalau bukan kuah masam2, better tak payah kuah, kering je

rasanya tu jelah yang bole masuk, yang lain kena try n error...food lain mcam kerang, laksa, sardines, peanuts...semua akan muntah

soo advise me nk makan apa? nk kena tambah berat and bagi baby healthy...supplement naseb bole telan, tapi sekali skala klua jugakk.

i consume :

: bcomplex SHAKLEE
: vitamin C SHAKLEE
: sometimes esp SHAKLEE

tak berani makan byk sgt sebab tkut muntah..hahaha


Bila fikir balik, this time pregnancy, i had my hubby fully di sisi..compared to first pregnancy we were LDR.. so this time manja sebab ayah ada ke baby? first pregnancy, independent sebab semua kena handle alone..kena jadi driver to my mom kalau nk hantar my lil bro/sis balik kolej.. panjat umah sewa yang kat tingkat 5 tu..beli groceries alone, and angkat naik alone..so yang ni bagi can nak jadi manja ke cmne? hopefully getting better laah after this...wanna be active balik and bole berselera nk makan semula.

just sharing...till next time...

Sekali Lagi

salam....

dah masuk 2020 and dah nak masuk bulan March pulak tu...tetap xlupa blog kesayangan ni...cumaa ade a few things yang buat jadi blog ni dilupakan sat...hehe..arini rasa rajen.. ada mood nak menulis.. jadinya kita ONZ jela kan..      
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okeyy...to start with.. this thing, i wanna share n keep it as memories...so nanti boleh belek2..without consume space mcm tulis dalam diary...ok ni pasal im pregnant again after menunggu for about 4 years+ :)...hub by n I planned to have kids lagi after Suhail dah 3 years da..da wean off semua..trying..even on ovulation day(based on the app which i always keep track, yg mmg tepat based on my period duration and all) but still...no rezeki..tapi i still keep on trying...yang kadang2 rasa give up jugak..andd kadang2 pasrah jugak...Suhail sorang jelahh..haha

Lagi pulak keje kat kedai makan tu, kerja agak berat, angkat benda berat, cuci lantai and all..berdiri all day long..its tiring and made me think that itulah possible reason why susah nak 'lekat'
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a week before end of November '19, looking at the period app, i will have my period...being me yang always getting high temp fever, sakit breast usually happened a WEEK before my period...soo, memang i had fever for the whole week...while working da dapat rasa badan xsedap...bodyache..so i thought its normal laaa macam bulan2 lepas...not putting any hope this time. Monday- Wednesday tu tak dapat pergi kerja. I just cant, dengan kepala pening, badan sakit...im at my weakest point. and yeah..stay je  kat rumah...with no apetite, weak. Friday, its my birthday...getting better, hari Sabtu siap bole pegi kenduri...tapi one thing i notice, i'm easily get tired..naik kereta je, tros terlelap..kalau dok tgk tv pon, bole terlelap...so dalam fikiran, maybe sbb demam not fully recover and period just around the corner.
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then the first week of  December '19, Tuesday, while working rasa nk demam lagi...i said to myself isk...baru baik demam, takkan demam lagi,,,and the result...cuti lagi on Wednesday..eventho working with in-laws family, i bukan jenis yang ambil kesempatan, malas2..suka ponteng ..NO! sebab i think its my responsible to work hard to assist the best i can to help my in-laws fam. That time, my period was 4 days late dah... tapi tak nak berharap sebab seblom ni pon pernah je 5 days late...but then bila check, its negative...elok je dah check...tros period...SAD :(...
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That night, i cant sleep, bodyache, macam2 position tak kena...masa tu da 3 am...so i thought buat Tahajud laa.....mintak dengan Allah mungkin kali ni ada rezeki nak pregnant. so i mintak sungguh2 that night...n i xtdo until Subuh. Nekad nk check tros....sebab kalau positif boleh jaga2 sebab fragile kan..
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So, i do the test...after Subuh prayer...after berdoa to Allah...Masha-Allah...berdebarnya perasaan masa tu...sebab mmg mengharap ada rezeki kali ni...after 2minutes...Alhamdulillah...2 red line on the test stick...tros show it to my hubby....he kinda blur..lepas i bgtau im pregnant then he hugged me.n im crying!! teresak2...so happy with the test result..
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Next phase is..berjaga- jaga....
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sambung on next entry :)

5th December 2019