Nausea....weak at its best!

sooo...last post is about me yang dapat tau pregnant again
 Alhamdulillah rezeki :). . da ready mental, fizikal semua...sebab memang naaakkk sangat baby kan... and not all pregnancy journey to smooth sailing, happy, bahagia...and lucky for you if you not encounter any morning sickness.. congrats!
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orang kata, nak tau kita ada alahan while ke tak, ask your mom...yes, your mom yang give birth to you!..kalau your mom ada alahan, then you will too! and as for me, based on my first pregnancy, and my mom...i have alahan agak teruk...BUT this time at its worst!

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i remember, masa pregnantkan Suhail, yes i do encounter morning sickness, tak bole bau benda yang too wangi/ busuk.. lost apetite and the list go on..tapi dalam 12 weeks macam tu, its getting better. but for this pregnancy, now im already 16 weeks, still headache tak kira masa, if salah makan bila2 saja bole muntah...and frequent pitam . So, i cant go to work which require me to stand all day long..i did try, but i just can't. sebab tros pitam and weak.
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yeah..very weak this time...dengan tak berapa selera nak makan...weight losss which my weight now only 43-44 kg je. i dunno what to eat..try to eat...i can eat but then a few moments later...rs xsedap dalam perut and hasilnya...muntah semua.
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my fav food pon i rs loya..cannot makan pedas2..n buntu nak makan apa..tapi LAPAR! every night while tdo, selalu mimpi tengah makan, apa2 laaa...sebab maybe perut lapa kot. minum air kosong..awas! tros muntah semua sampai tak ada apa, tahap smpai green color yang keluar asid tu... my hubby's dedorant pon tak bole bau...pdhal i yang belikan bau tu dulu,,bila die nk sembur, i ask him sembur kt luar bilik, jauh2, kalau tak i terus muntah...now hubby pakai yang roll on je ..so for now, lambat laa habis perfume...bersambung lepas deliver laaa nampaknya.
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bau orang menumis, yang menyengat...kuali tengah tnggu minyak panas...fuhhh..siaplah trus meluru...while now i stay umah in law sbb my MIL risau if i sorang2, malu la bila dorang tgh masak i xtlg kann...i try to tahan but FAILED..lastly dorang kesian and halau i jgn masuk dapo. u see, the feeling lepas muntah tu...i xsuka sbb mmg lemah sangat lepas tu.
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nak keluar jalan jalan memang takde buat masa skrg, my mom in law adala jugak ajak keluar makan, sebab risau i bosan terperap kat rumah, but i dont mind and i feel at ease kalau kt rumah..kalau keluar rumah time panas2 tu memang mengundang pitam je nanti, better NOT! menyusahkan orang je nanti...bila dorang tanya ada teringin nak makan apa ke? i just say ntahla..xde rs apa pon..xde selera..tak terfikir nak makan...smpai to that point.
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malam-malam...another problem is...i cant sleep...i just shut my eyes but i cant sleep..smpai laaa 4am cmtu baru rs nak terlena...pastu pening sebab kena bangun subuh pastu tak bole tdo lagi...hasilnya..HEADACHE. Handphones, pon tak bole tengok lama2...pening and bila pening, muntah laaa..lagi2 kalau tengok dalam gelap..better not.
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kesimpulannya, this time pregnancy, mmg teruk...and im at my weakest point...if people said, its 2nd pregnancy, shud be easier....its a bullshit. differ people, differ pregnancy, differ pregnancy journey..
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Now at my 16th weeks, bolela jugak tapi still if baby tak suka...loya n trus muntah...haih la baby...ibu dont know what to eat lagi
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Things yang i bole consume now:

: air kosong have to be COLD, if not i will get orange juice (sikit je) campur dalam air msk, to add flavor je

: Susu kurma, soya, orange juice

: orange, apple, mango, prunes...(watermelon cant accept )

: things i cook...now suka sgt masak kurma ayam, telur masak asam

: bayam, if makan nasi pon kalau bukan kuah masam2, better tak payah kuah, kering je

rasanya tu jelah yang bole masuk, yang lain kena try n error...food lain mcam kerang, laksa, sardines, peanuts...semua akan muntah

soo advise me nk makan apa? nk kena tambah berat and bagi baby healthy...supplement naseb bole telan, tapi sekali skala klua jugakk.

i consume :

: bcomplex SHAKLEE
: vitamin C SHAKLEE
: sometimes esp SHAKLEE

tak berani makan byk sgt sebab tkut muntah..hahaha


Bila fikir balik, this time pregnancy, i had my hubby fully di sisi..compared to first pregnancy we were LDR.. so this time manja sebab ayah ada ke baby? first pregnancy, independent sebab semua kena handle alone..kena jadi driver to my mom kalau nk hantar my lil bro/sis balik kolej.. panjat umah sewa yang kat tingkat 5 tu..beli groceries alone, and angkat naik alone..so yang ni bagi can nak jadi manja ke cmne? hopefully getting better laah after this...wanna be active balik and bole berselera nk makan semula.

just sharing...till next time...

Sekali Lagi

salam....

dah masuk 2020 and dah nak masuk bulan March pulak tu...tetap xlupa blog kesayangan ni...cumaa ade a few things yang buat jadi blog ni dilupakan sat...hehe..arini rasa rajen.. ada mood nak menulis.. jadinya kita ONZ jela kan..      
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okeyy...to start with.. this thing, i wanna share n keep it as memories...so nanti boleh belek2..without consume space mcm tulis dalam diary...ok ni pasal im pregnant again after menunggu for about 4 years+ :)...hub by n I planned to have kids lagi after Suhail dah 3 years da..da wean off semua..trying..even on ovulation day(based on the app which i always keep track, yg mmg tepat based on my period duration and all) but still...no rezeki..tapi i still keep on trying...yang kadang2 rasa give up jugak..andd kadang2 pasrah jugak...Suhail sorang jelahh..haha

Lagi pulak keje kat kedai makan tu, kerja agak berat, angkat benda berat, cuci lantai and all..berdiri all day long..its tiring and made me think that itulah possible reason why susah nak 'lekat'
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a week before end of November '19, looking at the period app, i will have my period...being me yang always getting high temp fever, sakit breast usually happened a WEEK before my period...soo, memang i had fever for the whole week...while working da dapat rasa badan xsedap...bodyache..so i thought its normal laaa macam bulan2 lepas...not putting any hope this time. Monday- Wednesday tu tak dapat pergi kerja. I just cant, dengan kepala pening, badan sakit...im at my weakest point. and yeah..stay je  kat rumah...with no apetite, weak. Friday, its my birthday...getting better, hari Sabtu siap bole pegi kenduri...tapi one thing i notice, i'm easily get tired..naik kereta je, tros terlelap..kalau dok tgk tv pon, bole terlelap...so dalam fikiran, maybe sbb demam not fully recover and period just around the corner.
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then the first week of  December '19, Tuesday, while working rasa nk demam lagi...i said to myself isk...baru baik demam, takkan demam lagi,,,and the result...cuti lagi on Wednesday..eventho working with in-laws family, i bukan jenis yang ambil kesempatan, malas2..suka ponteng ..NO! sebab i think its my responsible to work hard to assist the best i can to help my in-laws fam. That time, my period was 4 days late dah... tapi tak nak berharap sebab seblom ni pon pernah je 5 days late...but then bila check, its negative...elok je dah check...tros period...SAD :(...
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That night, i cant sleep, bodyache, macam2 position tak kena...masa tu da 3 am...so i thought buat Tahajud laa.....mintak dengan Allah mungkin kali ni ada rezeki nak pregnant. so i mintak sungguh2 that night...n i xtdo until Subuh. Nekad nk check tros....sebab kalau positif boleh jaga2 sebab fragile kan..
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So, i do the test...after Subuh prayer...after berdoa to Allah...Masha-Allah...berdebarnya perasaan masa tu...sebab mmg mengharap ada rezeki kali ni...after 2minutes...Alhamdulillah...2 red line on the test stick...tros show it to my hubby....he kinda blur..lepas i bgtau im pregnant then he hugged me.n im crying!! teresak2...so happy with the test result..
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Next phase is..berjaga- jaga....
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sambung on next entry :)

5th December 2019

RUN baby run

Beware...this is a throwback saja!
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so..after a  while (a while keeee??) after giving birth...after not PJJ-ing with my husband, at lasttt im back on the road! back on the road as if baru nk blaja bawak kete ke ape? haha...hit the road read: running..well..running boleh dikatakan one of my fav thing...after reading, gaming, music, eat..sleep..to name a few..hahaha
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duluuu..dululaaa....zaman2 uni...zaman carefree...tak payah pk pasal apa2...i mean, xpyh pk pasal benda berat2 laaa...punya banyak masa untuk pegi berlari setiap petang di stadium (tempat terjumpanya jodoh-ku..ahaks) ..best sangat sebab bagi Pjart, bila berlari tu mmg bole release tension...selain menyihatkan badan..juga dapat cuci mata (ehemmm)..
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and lagi seronok bila ada  geng yang sekepala gila berlari (UiTm Runner Club)..yang sanggup bangun as early as 5 am, naik bas sesama dari pusat sukan (UiTM) untuk pegi running event sama2, sokong each other..fuhhh...the feeling..is pricelesss...event running setiap bulan mmg up to date..yelahh da masuk runner club..tinggal bayar je...bas semua pegi dgn bas UiTM..so..takde hal..xde alasan..
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runners club in memories

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selain makan, utk blaja..duit PTPTN Pjart guna untuk beli running gear, masuk running event..(xmembazir kan? heee)
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eh termelalut terkenang zaman Uni pulak...soo..after da lama x hit d road..jadinya..bila da dok skali dengan hubby n siblings..anak2 menakan read: anak sedara in kedah/penang pon sekepala...so here it is my first run after ermmm beberapa tahun tak join apa2 event larian..
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quite excited i must sayy...so a month before event...went jog 3 times a week...yang mana first session i was like...semput hell..sakit kaki..badan aching...u name ittttt...mmg menyesal tak kira laa...anyhoo getting better selepas beberapa session....
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anddddd....hari yang ditunggu pon tibaaa...dengan lagu2 yang mmg dipilih utk teman berlari...im readyyy to hit the road...buttt...silly mistakes..i ate KFC 1 hour before lari...yelaaa abes keje kol 5...balik trus singgah kepci..pastu trus gerak pegi event...masa lari baru teringat...sakit bahagian abs mcm nk mati (xmati pon).. yang agak disturbing sbb first 2km je boleh tahan berlari...then i run n stop run n stop until finishing line...served me well..haaa tepukkk..xpelaaa baru join balik berlari kannn....(pujuk hati sdri)
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so itulah titik permulaan join back dunia larian...but noww...sekadar join fun run 5km jee...lelebih xlarat derr...tp teringin jugakk nak layan 10km macam dolu2,, i even run for half marathon..21km tauu...
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so for now...cerita pasal first run after giving birth to Suhail dulu laaa...akan datang cerita next running event 
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me n hubby 

TERINGIN sejenis throwback

I myself memang suka sangat dengan buku..tapi xingtlah umur berapa da pndai membaca..sebab dari kekecik dulu memang nampak apa je baca..smpai tahap bila nak makan pon akan cari sesuatu untuk di baca..kalau dapat buku the better tapi kalau takde buku..plastik roti pon bolehh..hahaha..dah jadi habit

As dulu my father keje sorang while umi is a housewives..so hidup taklah susah tapi taklah mewah..tambah plak i myself anak sulung..ada 3 adik lagi..so u wont easily get what u want..

Pegi sekolah memang tempat budak budak nak show off kan..pencil box cantik..beg boleh tarik..whilst me pakai beg buruk je..pakai selagi boleh..n sebab suka sangat membaca..one day ada classmate bawak buku cerita which is soooo awesome to me..ada gambar..ada cerita rakyat yang magis..i was like....nakkk jugak..kawan of kos la xbagi pinjam..juz baca beberapa chaps and aku naaakk sangat buku tu!

Tapi yelahhh awal2 tadi dah cakap, mmg susah laaa nk dapat benda fancy cmtu..ada benda yang basic cukup untuk pegi sekolah je..but i try my luck cakap to my father...nak buku cerita..so my father pon just say yes which i know..xdapat atau lmbat lagi nak dapat..either one..

Well buku yang i nak adelah macam ni..mahal harganya

But my father beli buku lain which wayyyy cheaper than the book yang i nak...but im not complaining...dapat buku cerita baru untuk dibaca i was likeee seronoknyaaaaaaa

Then masa tu femes this komik named “kawan” so every month my father akan belikan and eagerly masuk pertandingan coloring whatsoever sebab menang rollerblade yang masa tu tengah in..sadly..tak menang..until now..no rollerblade n im a noob nk pakai kasut roda tak berapa stabil cmtu..hehe

Okayy tu jelaahh throwback kenangan masa kecik..memang tak boleh lupa..hard to get what i want cmtu je..lambat ataupon none..

But that thingy made who am i today..usaha to get what i want..tak meminta2..and appreciate benda yang i ada

KEMBALI

Sejak resign 2017 ( ye kot? ) memang lupa terus dengan blog ni..azam tinggal azam je nak menulis..tapi xpelaa..sebab aritu apps untuk update blog okay jee..suddenly bila rajen nak menulis, dah siap2 tulisss...then tak bole post..ceh..such a waste! 

Bila da fedap cmtu, malas dah la nk cari medium lain untuk update blog..the only way is tru the phone..laptop mmg lama da berkubur..sejak abes study..xpakai laptop..apetah lagi pc..kalau nk pakai pon pinjam laaa adik punya ke..suami punya kee..gitulaaa

Tapi yang ni aritu macam banyak sangat, idea nak menulis tu mencurah..rajenkan diri cari apps yg boleh update blog..hopefully yang ni xbuat hall laaa mcm prev apps

Soo..my son already 4 years old..quitting my job..working with my in laws family..moved to Kedah..so many changes..so many stories..

Jom start !

First step

Blog ni kira macam diary kan..i dont mind kalau takde orang nak baca pon..s long s i can read it future nanti.
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Suhail sekarang dah 1y11m. Next month is his birthday!! Ok Ibu is OVER..hahah..rasa macam kejaappp sangat je tempoh baby tu now da nak masuk 2 years old.
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Ingat lagi..mana boleh tak ingaaat...suhail first step without aid was on 14 feb 2017. Yup..agak lambat. Ada yang umur 9 bulan da laju berjalan, 7 months da boleh jalan terus without fasa merangkak. So advanced! Tapi Pjart chill jelah walaopon kdg2 risau laaa nape xberjalan lagi anak aku nih!
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Ada satu benda yang melegakan bila Pjart ada terbaca yang baby merangkak lebih lama is the better..sebab menggunakan whole body to explore n stimulates their sensory motor. Thanx article, rasa chill lebih lagi.
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Memang sangat happy bila acheivement unlock then here it comes new challenge! Dah tak nak dukung and suka lari ke sana ke mari tak nak dipegang. Well, nak explore lebih la tu.
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Bila pandai berjalan dah, kasut pon eksaited nak beli..macam macam jenis..tapi often yang paling selesa akan dipakai kerap!
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Apepon ibu harap Suhail membesar dengan sihat dan jadi anak yang soleh!


P/s : bila anak da pandai jalan, tak pasal je ibunya sekali bersenam sebab nak kejar anak laju sangat berjalan 😊

OHsem October !

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